It’s THAT time again.

Stress.

That’s it. That’s everything I’m feeling right now. Overwhelming amounts of stress packed onto my school life. Almost too much for me to handle. It’s been affecting me so much. Too much. I sit here…putting off my finance homework for a few more moments as I chug down some ice cold water and migraine relief medicine. These next 4 weeks (1 month, whichever sounds more appealing) will be h-e-double hockey sticks for me.

How will I endure it? No, not a time countdown to summer, because THAT is stressful in itself. I will only cope with hot showers and a whole lot of Jesus-worship music to put me in a better, uplifting mood — making me thankful that I have the opportunity to have supportive parents, friends, family, and to have a God that has given me the opportunity, drive, and motivation for a career. I’ve learned that grades cannot reflect my inner self and who I really am. So, I try my ultimate hardest, but I go to bed at a reasonable time and what’s done that day is done.

The next morning, I’ll repeat my daily routines, being as driven as ever (am I trying to convince myself right now?). I haven’t been THIS tired in a very long time…but I have to remember that times like these is when I most need to rely on Christ for strength and for Him to elongate my restless nights.

The following are encouraging verses for you peeps. Write em on your mirror, sticky note your bedroom wall, but it on your dashboard in your car…I dare you!

Matthew 6:30 And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?

Philippians 4:6-7 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ.

1 Peter 5:7 Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.

Love ya.

Hashtag Blessed…..but really.

“First in line to order Starbucks this morning #blessed”
“Just bought the last package of mac and cheese at the store #blessed”
“Eating chocolate cake #blessed”

Okay so basically now when someone says that they are blessed in their life…they kinda say it with sarcasm. I will admit, I’ve said it many times before on social media. But now I’ve come to realized that being blessed depends so highly on our outlook of our faith, our relationship with Christ and most definitely our attitudes.

I’ve done a lot of thinking this past week. With being around my family, I found myself thinking back on the days that I was just a young little girl swinging on my favorite tree swing that my dad made by hand on our 1 acre of green land back in Pennsylvania. I also remember the selfish fights my brother and I had that we now look back on and laugh. I recall several memories I had in public school where other kids made fun of me and I never understood why. I remember the time I tried to ride my bike and roller blade at the same time which ended up leaving bloody scratches on my cheeks and forehead. I distinctly remember the time I asked my mom why the cashier handed her back so much money at the grocery store. I remember the time when my dad told us on our family vacation he left his job because he felt led to go in a different direction with his career. I started to realize that life is so much more than being mad at my parents for forcing me to move to a state in the middle of the country (Oklahoma).  

This is when I started to realize that hardships are a part of life and absolutely no one can ignore or run away from. You have to deal with them. You learn, whether the event was a mistake or not. This week, I looked back on my life and see how far myself (and my family) has come. Honestly, we are blessed. At one point, we had everything and plenty more. The next, we had nothing. Today, we have what we need. We are blessed; without a doubt. God has taught us that the roof over our head is so so so beautiful and we need to have a grateful heart for our home. For our vehicles. For our friendships and for ourselves being together. For our health. For the way God has purposefully composed our lives. I learned to live by faith.

I am blessed to be obtaining an education, so how dare I complain about it?
I am blessed to have an amazing, supporting, loving father, mother and brother. Amazing friends. Relationships.

Honestly, a majority of us go throughout the day…taking things for complete granted. At the same time, a majority of us need to have a more thankful heart and truly understand the meaning of being blessed. Being in the United States, we live in such a rich environment and have so much freedom. God has been teaching me so much that it can all be taken from us any second. Our expiration date can be a breath away.

This afternoon, I started to go into complete stress-out mode on my dad. I told him I was worrying so much about grad school: where to go, how to pay for it, which direction to focus on etc. He looked me in the eye and said “Christina, where is all this worry rooting from?” and at first I pointed to my mom in the kitchen and said “I got those genes from her” but my dad really knew what I was thinking. Worry doesn’t come from God. He gives us confidence. He is not a God of doubt. And this is something I remind myself daily. I can’t run away from my stress and worry, but I know who I can turn to.

Peace homies.

Why are coffee shops so versatile?

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I wanna be like you, coffee shop. Okay so this totally sparked as I’m sitting on this rainy afternoon in a particular coffee shop where I’ve been observing people as studying for my midterms because multi-tasking is the new thing, right? So why do we really go to coffee shops? Most of us would think to go study right? Nah. It’s 2014. Now it’s to chat it up with some humans AKA dates. Seriously. I’m sitting here and at least three couples are here on a date. Some guys I’ve recognized and I swore they had a girlfriend? Ew. Kinda sketch. No judgment there though.

Then there’s people that just sit and read the newspaper.

Then you have that one man who slowly drinks coffee from his cup and stares out the window.

Then you have the two moms (maybe one with their new born baby) that are catching up on the married lyfe, ya know?

So long story short, coffee places are probably actually to just hang out and build connections. I’ve done this before. Several times. Never a date though! (My life is in complete reverse and denial of going with the flow of how things should be done, I guess).

Okay so I just thought that was pretty cool. I kinda wish I could have the attitude of a coffee shop…hahaha now I’m actually laughing at the sound of that sentence. BUT, I’ve been learning lately that we should look at our surroundings and learn from them. We should be open to accepting people the way they are. We should let anyone in despite their looks, their cash in the bank, or the reason they are coming to you. Do you ever get kinda annoyed with people who just sit and bother you or talk their head off to you and kinda give you nothing to work with? Or mentally tell them “I have life problems too but you wouldn’t care if I told them to you.” Sucks, doesn’t it? Well that’s kinda like those people who go to a coffee shop and spend 8 hours there but don’t buy a coffee? Kinda using them for free. I’ve done this several times so no hard feelings, again. Ha.

Bottom line: be like  a coffee shop. Be versatile.

When I grow up…

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It’s finally here. The phrase everyone has been asking me is currently now. Right now. I’m living it. Before I even continue, can we just recap what I wanted to do according to my age?

kindergarten: a cop, firefighter, or an astronaut.
grade school: ballerina or a vet.
eight yrs old: dolphin trainer or a weather newscaster
nine yrs old until freshman year of college: vet and live on a tropical island while swimming with dolphins

Now: currently it’s becoming a clinical dietician. However it doesn’t stop there.

Honestly, what I want to become when I grow up is become a motivational speaker, I wanna write a book, I wanna become a traveler, I wanna be interviewed by a big news broadcaster, I wanna be an inspiration, I wanna help people know Christ, I wanna host a big event, I wanna be a judge, and I wanna use my education for purposes other than bringing in cash. I wanna use it for higher purposes, because I wont need the money. Who does? I’m way too independent.

I just finished taking an career quiz…and surprisingly it said I should go into the “Health Sciences” field which is the first time one of those quizzes has been correct!

Man…my life is lame sometimes. Did I really just take a career personality quiz on a Friday night instead of hanging out with friends?

Life is TEMPOrary.

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Okay, so, what God has been distinctively teaching me lately are small details that are creating a much larger picture. He has taken things out of my life and added new things. Kinda like a replacement. Only more frustrating…ha! He has made me use my brain…which is exactly what I’ve asked Him to do. He is making me rely on my own Faith, define my Faith, and bringing me through sticky situations. Through all of this, I know He only wants me to be thanking Him. With this, He wants to soften my stubborn heart. See what I mean? After one step, then another, and then one more until everything links together.

So more specifically (or more overall), He has taught me to stop the frick with worrying about every frickin detail of life. You know why? Because it doesn’t matter. Everything on Earth is temporary. What matters is your fate: where you end up. I read the other day in Hebrews about how death is inevitable. We all face it. But as Christians, we are saved from the sting of death.

Don’t take me the wrong way. Please, continue to have your goals, your life desires, your picture perfect future, and enjoy life. Have your “you only live once moments.” But just remember that what we are experiencing on Earth is a millimeter of what’s to come. Think about it. If life were a 12″ ruler, life right now would probably take up just 1 millimeter! Bet you’ve never heard that analogy before! Muhaha!

Anyways…don’t let your life consume you. I know I’ve changed the theme of this post about 5 times, but welcome to my brain’s thought process.

Peace homies.

20 Random Things.

The title says it all. I’m going to tell you 20 random things about myself that you probably don’t know, but high five if you do!

  1. I’ve visited Germany 8 times, because I am German. No joke.
  2. I’m allergic to bananas.
  3. I’ve wanted to be an astronaut, a firefighter, a vet, a ballerina, and a dolphin trainer. Only 2 years ago I decided to study Nutritional Sciences and make it a career.
  4. In my 20 years of existence, I’ve only own my car for the past 6 months. This is because I have to pay for things by myself!
  5. I have always wanted a younger sibling.
  6. I want to eventually adopt a kid.
  7. Never been in a relationship & everything that comes with it.
  8. I LOVE TRAVELING.
  9. The only reason I want to go to grad school (other than furthering my education) is because I’m not ready in a year and a half to start a full-time job. Slow down, ya know?
  10. I have very weird eating habits. Just ask me…or people who know me.
  11. I was homeschooled for 6 years. I equally love being in a classroom or being in my bed while doing school.
  12. I feel like a majority of girls are scared of spiders, but I’m kinda like “Bring it on…” because it’s just an insect.
  13. I can type very fast and sometimes I wish I could get a scholarship for it.
  14. I danced for 12 years as a sport, now I still do it as a hobby.
  15. I’m a clean FREAK.
  16. I have always wanted a kid with the initials BMW. I have no clue why other than it’s a car.
  17. I laugh A LOT and some kids in high school made major fun of me but then I was given the title “Girl with the best laugh.” #proudmoment
  18. I played piano for 5 years and now I want to relearn it!
  19. People have told me I kinda have an accent, but it’s not from the south, north, east, or west part of the country. One person described it as a “crystal clear voice” kinda what like new anchors have. So I guess that’s fun.
  20. I love Jesus (saving the best for last, obvi).

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

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The number one question I was asked in high school when applying to colleges (or life after high school in general), was the following, “Describe where you see yourself in five years.” Umm, ok. Well obviously college takes about four years, sooo probably hunting down a job if I didn’t have one coming out of college. So, I didn’t feel “ready” to even be able to answer that question. Being a junior in college, I think maybe now would be an appropriate time for the same question. Maybe this will be a popular question? Nah, most likely it’ll be “Are you dating anyone?” question, let’s be honest. Everyone can relate.

So, in five years I will be 25 years old. I plan on going to grad school after graduating with my bachelor degree. Therefore, in about five years, I will be done with school for the rest of my life (hopefully). Here’s a list of what I think my life will look like:

  • Most likely, I will accept a job offer and move to wherever that location is.
  • I hope to be debt free and pay off any grad school loans.
  • If I don’t get a job right out of graduate school, I told myself that’s a “meant-to-be” situation and I would probably travel outside the country. Of course, when all else fails, direct yourself to something you love. In my case it’s hopping onto airplanes.
  • If I’m called in a different direction other than having a full-time job, I will go that direction. I’ve found in the past that always trusting God’s instincts rather than my own is always the way to go.
  • On the same note as traveling, I’m required (long story) to take a trip with a few guidelines. The first guideline is that it has to be somewhere where I’ve never been and it needs to be done BEFORE I’m 25. So I might be able to squeeze it in right after grad school finishes. I’ll keep you posted.
  • Most likely won’t be in a relationship; unless it’s God’s plan. I’ll also keep you posted on that.
  • My relationship with Christ to be ever more closer than ever. Each year I grow so much in my trust and faith in the Lord. Although it’s not an overnight process (at least not for me), I know that I try hard to rely on Him and stay rooted in my faith.
  • Start doing medical missions! Why not use my education of nutrition to help countries that aren’t able to receive the education I did? HELLO. Yes please.

Alright, this is all I can think of. It’s mostly a broad overview, but I’m not good with details in general so what more could you expect.