A Call to Arms

Send this couple a prayer tonight.

Jordan & Cady Lewis

My apologies for taking so long to post with an update on what’s going on.  This post will unfortunately not be one with good news and reports but I am confident that what I am going through is nothing but a light momentary affliction which is preparing me an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison (2 Corinthians 4:17). 

For the past seven weeks, I have been going through chemotherapy treatments that have combined three different chemos – weekly Erbitux, tri-weekly Cisplatin, and tri-weekly Taxotere.  Side effects have been difficult, but manageable and have not affected my work schedule.  The most noticeable side effects are fatigue, skin rashes, and hair loss (although i’m not bald yet!).  When I finished my sixth treatment cycle, my oncologist wanted to order some scans to see how the cancer was responding to the chemo, so last Wednesday I had a brain MRI, and a chest/neck/ab…

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Why have I never thought of this before…

Why study abroad when you can just move there for at least 1 or 2 years and get another DEGREE?! This just dawned on me this morning since I have been trying to figure out my life and its direction. My greatest fear is being offered a position after my internship (who has ever said that’s a worry in their life?! ME). Well anyways, I think I’ve decided to just graduate college, get my internship out of the way, and then go back to the university lifestyle. But not in the U.S. of A. How about across the country?

I don’t know why this scares people…to just take the leap and move across the world, with a different culture, different people, and maybe a different language. For me, these are the three most exciting things in my life! It just now clicked that I can pursue these things while getting an education!

Let the university searching begin once again…it seems like education never stops working.

I guess I’ll miss mom & dad…….

Life as we want it to run.

Life is such a beautiful thing/creation/object/experience. Whichever way you want to look at it, it is still gonna be beautiful at the end of the night. When I look at people, I see the full potential of how wonderful they are. I once heard a quote that kinda goes like this, “No matter where you are or what you are doing, there is someone thinking about you.” Sometimes I think to myself that I am somewhat of a lass resource to the people around me…such as the last person to ask to hang out, last person to eat food with, last person to text message (…is this why all of my messages are always so late at night…hmm…deep thoughts here). Anyways, don’t worry. I’ve gotten completely over the fact that I’m sure sometime during the day, my closest friends might think about me. But besides that fact, what about the people I pass by each day walking to class? What about the people I sat next to in an airplane? Or maybe the people I’ve passed before while running errands? For some reason, I find myself thinking a lot about not only my closest acquaintances, but also the people I know least. This may include friends of friends, that one guy I pass everyday walking to my morning class, that one girl who always eats lunch alone…the list can go on and on. I know I think about them. Such as where they are now, what’s their history, what’s their story, what’s there life like?

 

Does this ever happen to you? Have you ever met one person that you know you’ll never see again? I have. There is something about these individuals that makes me cling to them. Trust me, I am not an open person, but if I would see them again, I would run up to them and embrace them. Would they know me?

 

This leads me think…have I ever passed someone, and they are thinking about me right at this very moment?

Love.

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Tonight I realized what God’s love is really all about. I could take the next year to write out each detail and what I know about love, but let’s save that for later. When talking about love, I’m not bringing up topics such as relationships between a romantic couple, or maybe your love for chocolate. Don’t get me wrong, that does apply to the word “love,” however I’m here to talk about His unfailing and never changing love for us sinners.

In my eyes, God’s love is an umbrella around my life. When I look to Him, I search for His love. I am happy to say that I completely  (110%)  rely on His everlasting love on a daily basis. I look for it in everything I do. Sometimes I ask myself “Is what I’m doing pleasing God, and will he still love me?” This is such a hard question to ask at some difficult times, but knowing that His grace is sufficient for us makes me feel better, well most of the times at least.

For me, everything that I want to get out of God falls under the Love Umbrella. With His love, I also receive grace, compassion, comfort, healing, faith, and trust. If I did not find love in Him, then I know I would be confused with his other offerings.

Everyday, I try not to find love in worldly things whether it is an item or person or anything else. Ultimately, I want to fully rely on His love (which then every one of His other gifts come pouring out) only and no one else’s. Yes, I will always adore, love, appreciate, and comfort my friends/family. But when it comes to a particular area in my life, I know that His love will be enough for me.

 

1 John 4:19-20

“We love because he first loved us. If anyone says, ‘I love God,’ yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen.”

LABOR.

Yes yes, it’s Labor Day weekend. While everyone and their dog are out on the lake with a cold pop in their hand and getting a little darker before autumn comes, I’m inside trying to teach myself school! Crazy thing, I have my first exam this week. It’s Accounting…which is simple to do but just about the most time consuming subject ever. Wait, I’ll take that back…Organic Chemistry is super time consuming, but that’s because it’s difficult…ok who cares.

 

Anyways, I’m definitely Laboring…with homework this weekend. Next up is Biochemistry homework. Ew. Definitely will have to make myself a coffee to survive this holiday. 

Peace out homies. You’re welcome Mom, for me giving you a very fast delivery two decades ago. Not too much labor, right? And for all those mothers out there about to give birth…props to you. I much rather do all the homework I’ve every combined x5…and that’s pretty hard.